Stark raving mad. Did you ever ponder that term, and how it relates to your own daily existance? I mean, are there times you have, or just want to go stark raving mad? Do you consider yourself stark raving mad? More interestingly, do the people you *know* consider you stark raving mad? Are you stark raving mad if nobody you know or meet consider you stark raving mad? Will you go stark raving mad if I use the term "stark raving mad" one more time in this monologue? Do you wonder if I even care if I drive you stark raving mad by over using the term stark raving mad? I do actually, but that's not my point.

I sometimes feel like I'm on the loose chain of a lunatic asylum. Of course, I'm also the only detainee of said lunatic asylum. Would that make this asylum one of my own creation, or my way of dealing with the 'outside world'? If one such as myself is always in dissension with the world around me, why must I be the "insane one"? Why is it so damn "cool" to say "Hey, I'm the normal one, it's everyone else who's crazy." Maybe you're the nutcase. Or I'm the nutcase. Or anyone who says that is either ignorant, or arrogant. Or both. Maybe the world is normal, but has a tendancy to propel people into various states of dimentia. Or at least the occassional fit thereto. How many of you UK readers are thinking, "what's he on about now?" (for you US readers: "WTF is he talking about?"). That was just rhetorical. I really don't care. If you're reading this, it's cool. But I'm just sharing my thoughts. If you want to drop me a line, you're more than welcome to. But I'm not going to not share my thoughts as I see fit. Do I see fit? I don't know. I do wear glasses. Do I see unfit? Maybe...

So, just what am I on about? (btw, I'm not a UK'er, but it's a funny term. I like it). Honestly, I haven't the feintest clue... I have a bit of a headache, and am drinking Mountain Dew. It's okay, but I don't want to drink too much soda. So what's going through my noggin? Probably a few things. A bit of cabin fever (I'm at the store 60+ hours a week, and have been almost since it first opened in May 2003). A bit of lonliness (I haven't had a decent conversation with anyone even remotely close to my age in quite awhile [I'm talking year or more]. That's not to slight some of my friends online who are younger than me, but hold conversations well. I'm talking about an actual human being in person. I have no social life at ALL, and the relative ages of people who come into the store are mostly the Junior High School crowd (12-16 for those of you unfamiliar with Junior High). Not that I don't enjoy it. I mean, I've always had trouble being a "grown up", and I can actually relate to these kids in many ways. I also enjoy some of the games (we used to make fun of Yugioh, but who would have imagined I enjoy it more than Magic: The Gathering?), and occassionally can and will play games with them (btw, I'm a decent player, but can be easily beaten, so I'm not at any advantage other than getting the cards cheaper than the kids).

This is just one of those posts that I have to make periodically in order to keep what few strands of sanity I have left. I can't tell you how many times I've contemplated doing a, "David Banner". IE Just packing a sports bag with some basics, choosing a direction and just start walking. It could be what I was mean to do, although I'd rather do it "A-Team" style. (I pity da foo'!).

So, does anybody want to join me for a nice cup of 'stark raving madness'? I like mine with sugar and milk...